Thursday, July 05, 2007

Waiting For My Real Life To Begin

-I'm glad I came, but just the same, I must be going.
Hello, I Must Be Going sung by Groucho Marx

I have been watching reruns of the half-hour comedy show Scrubs on The Comedy Channel for awhile now. I never saw it the first time around and after seeing my first episode last Spring I thought to myself, "How did I not watch this, even once, when it was on NBC?"
Maybe because when it first came on I thought it was just another hospital show in a long line of hospital shows. Maybe because it was a half hour show so I wrote it off as just another moronic situation comedy. Well, if I did, I was wrong on both counts. Although it is a hospital show, it is not like any other hospital show I have seen and it is definitely not a situation comedy. It is funny and quirky- characteristics that I appreciate in my comedy. It also can make you think.

The main character, J. D., narrates the show for us and lets us in on his thoughts and daydreams. A couple of weeks ago I watched an episode where a patient that J. D. is fond of dies and his reaction to it is to daydream that she and the rest of his co-workers are in a musical number:

Any minute now,
My ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow,
Feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down, on me

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

My real life to begin
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

On a clear day, I can see
See a very long way

At that moment I had an epiphany. For the past four years I have been wasting time waiting for my real life to begin. I have dreams that I hope will come true but I have not been doing what I need to make that those dreams become reality. Part of the problem is this blog. It takes up so much of my time and energy that I don't have the time or energy left over for what I need to be doing. So, for that reason I have decided to stop blogging. I am not sure it this is for good but I do know it will be for the rest of the summer and most likely until the end of the year. I want to thank all my blog friends for stopping by to read what I've written and I want to let you know that I still will be checking in on your blogs even though I won't be posting on my own.

Take care, everyone.

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